My Thoughts .

I I am not mad at them I am mad at the world I am not here right now I am merely having fun YOU...  You were unable to see the blood I am unstable and misunderstood You were unable to see the pain I am unstable and a little insane You were unable to see the hurt I am unstable and a little disturbed You are unable to say it out loud That you never loved me - without a doubt. You tried to help me but I hurt you instead I did not have the audacity to accept that change The best thing you ever did for me was let me go Sorry if my back hurt your knife. HIM... Can we live in the moment without an ounce of worry? Can we be all about us and forget about the world for a second? Can we be in love tonight and be strangers in the morning? If you want, I could write our story on my heart and carry it with me forever.. The only problem is, I do not have that much space left You are not the first and you certainly would not be the last Can we be in love tonight a...

Staring blankly at my computer. The words that once meant something stares back at me. The cold hands of sadness grips my heart. I am in awe of how something so beautiful could be bad at the same time. I try to express myself verbally, I end up making things worse. I try to suppress my feelings and act like I don’t care, just so I can focus but nothing seems to be working. I am beginning to think you are no good for me..... The sound of your laugh, the face you make when you are trying to concentrate, the sound of your voice... I cannot get enough of these things. You try to make me see reasons, but I am caught up in my world of anger. I watch your lips move, lines appearing on your face as you frown... I should be listening to you but I am distracted again ... There was a wall, you came barging in with tools and found a way around it. I have nowhere to go, nowhere to hide. I have not needed my wall for as long as I can remember and that was okay because I didn’t ...

You are out here looking for something good I am sorry I wrapped you into my mess I was not trying to hurt you, I just needed to feel better I let you be my distraction and for that I am sorry A thousand words would not do justice But, I cannot be what you need right now I am not even sure what I need but I know I need to feel something because I am slowly creeping into a bad place and giving in to the darkness... -Mia xx

I gave you pieces of me willingly I trusted you to guard, protect and cherish them And then all of a sudden, you are gone and so are the pieces Why do I feel so empty? So vulnerable, so alone? No wonder I keep going back to you I do not know who I am without you... -Mia xx

Ever since I clocked 23, I have been stressing about life. The pressure to be the best version of me and especially of acquiring success has been eating me up. There’s nothing wrong with wanting those things but I feel like I’m working towards a clock, and I only have a specific period of time to do these things. I think it’s just what society has made me believe. “I have to be in school at this age, I have to get married at a certain age, have kids at that age, bla bla bla….” Listening to people and the norm messes with your vibe LOL. Everyone has a TIME, and it is specific to just YOU. Kind of like how everyone is special and unique in their own way, same way people have different moments life happens for them. I can’t sit here and dwell on how a girl I went to school with who’s also 23, is married with a kid. Why exactly should that bother me? It doesn’t mean I have failed as a human being because I’m not there YET. Never ever look at someone’s life and feel bad ab...

Hi Everyone, It's been ages! I'm not even going to make excuses for being MIA. So, let’s get on with it...shall we? The most important thing to me is my authenticity and that is exactly what most of my readers cherish about my blog. Be rest assured that, what I post is real, genuine and not sugar coated at all. The truth is, I stayed away from blogging because I have always known my writing to be connected to my emotions and lately, they have been chocking and all shades of crazy. I wasn’t sure I wanted to share because, irrespective of my transparency, I am also a very private person. However, a certain someone said to me “I think it’s the time for you to write. Put your emotions into writing…you have the FUEL”. Ok!   You guys want the truth? The truth you shall have. My name is Simi and this is my story…. HAHHAHAH. Sounds dramatic huh? Anyway, I won't be spilling any tea today but trust me I have some. However, this is a welcome back post and I will be very act...