My Thoughts .

Hello  goodbye.        It was a sunny day, I stretch my hands out as I breathe in fresh air. There is definitely something different about it. Its different because I am not so used to sunny days, I mostly embrace nights. Nights are much cooler...safer. So, this is different as I don't feel darkness, the light shinning so bright, burning into my skin. I don't care about the pain.... the happiness of seeing the light took care of that.       It came up to me  and with a smile it gave me such wonderful dreams. Finally ready to let go, be less uptight, spontaneous and positive about the future. Not everyone will understand this, as the meaning of my words are in the words itself . The      sun has inflicted such pain on me, I don't know how long I can withstand the torture, but I care not about the pain as I want more of the happiness. Finally ignoring negativity and embracing positivity.   ...

You know what you want to be but society has something different planned for you. It's stressful meeting up actually, very difficult.  People don't realise how hard you work to try and fit into the image of you they have in their heads. You are a CIRCLE.  You have always been a circle,  you can develop yourself into something more but in that pattern. People don't buy the idea of you being a circle,  'YES ! Square.  That's what would suit her ' .                       Little do you know that in the process of trying to be square, you cut out the edges of the circle to try and fit into the square shape.  The little cuts you trim out of yourself... you know?  the one you think doesn't count because you so desperately want to be square shaped?  That's your strength and uniqueness . People are different, we all have something special that makes us different from the other,  it's how we are ma...

I look into your eyes with sadness.  I watch the words tumble out of your mouth,at that moment I couldn't breathe.  I think I am choking, I am definitely chocking . I feel my  heart move , dropping to my stomach.  My throat filled with stuffed up tears. My eyes dry and empty.    You know that moment when someone is talking in front of you but u can't hear them, you can only see their lips move. Thats all I can see. I look at you in disbelief, trying to process it all ,  I'm not sure I  heard u correctly.    Can you not see my heart breaking?  You can right?  Because I feel naked,utterly opened and completely vulnerable. My hands start to  shake,  I try to keep them steady but they just wouldn't budge.  The tears are coming now.... I can almost feel it. I'm trying.... really trying to keep them at bay.  You stopped talking at that moment.      Your words were like tiny arrows poking my fragile heart,  my tired heart. I feel like I'm at the edge of a hi...